CHAPTER SEVENTEEN B: THE DRIVER’S STORY

Nolan’s formal statement took most of a day.
He returned to the community kitchen afterward looking as though he had carried a heavy object up a long staircase.
Simone offered him coffee.
He asked for water instead.
Jake sat opposite him at a table near the window.
“Did you tell them about the gate?” Jake asked.
“I told them about the gate, the van, and the nights I drove without asking who was paying for the rooms,” Nolan answered.
“What did they say?”
“They asked for dates.”
Nolan gave a tired laugh.
“I thought the hard part would be explaining why I stayed.

”
“Wasn’t it?”
“The hard part was remembering the faces.”
He told Jake about a man who had asked to stop at a pharmacy because his daughter needed medicine.
Russell had ordered Nolan to keep driving.
Nolan had obeyed.
The man had spent the rest of the ride staring out the window.
“I keep thinking about that girl,” Nolan said.
“I don’t even know her name.”
Jake thought of Tessa behind the pharmacy counter.
“You can tell the investigators what happened,” he said.
“You can’t change the ride.”
Nolan looked at him sharply.
“That’s supposed to make me feel better?”
“No,

” Jake replied.
“It’s supposed to keep us from pretending this is easy.”
Nolan set down his glass.
“You ever done something you knew was wrong because you were afraid of losing your job?”
Jake remembered the days he had kept quiet when Warren shouted at younger employees.
He remembered a dishwasher named Eli who had been blamed for a broken machine he had never touched.
“Yes,” Jake said.
Nolan waited.
“I didn’t speak up for a coworker once,” Jake continued.
“He lost a week’s wages over something he didn’t do.”
“What happened to him?”
“He found another job.”
“Did you apologize?”
Jake shook his head.


Nolan leaned back.
“Maybe you should.”
Jake had not expected advice from the man who had spent the afternoon confessing his own failures.
He wrote Eli’s name on a napkin before he could forget again.

CHAPTER SEVENTEEN C: THE MAN AT THE GARAGE

Eli worked at a garage on the north side of town.
Jake found him beneath the hood of an old sedan with a flashlight clenched between his teeth.
Eli removed the flashlight and looked at Jake without smiling.
“I heard you got famous for giving away chicken,” he said.
“I heard that too,” Jake answered.
“What do you want?”
Jake explained why he had come.


Eli listened while tightening a bolt.
“You watched Warren blame me for the broken freezer,” he said.
“Yes.”
“You knew I’d told him the thermostat was failing.”
“Yes.”
“And you let him dock my pay.”
Jake looked down.
“I did.”
Eli set the wrench on the workbench.
“Why are you apologizing now?”
“Because I should have apologized then.”
“That’s not an answer.”
Jake took a breath.
“I’ve been hearing people explain why they stayed quiet when Russell hurt workers,” he said.
“I kept thinking I would have acted differently.”
“Then I remembered you.”
Eli stared at him for a long moment.


“You weren’t the one who docked my pay,” he said.
“I was the one who could have said the freezer was broken before you touched it,” Jake replied.
Eli picked up the wrench again.
“I needed that money for my son’s school shoes,” he said.
Jake felt the shame of the memory settle more firmly.
“I know.”
“No, you don’t,” Eli answered.
“You knew I had a son.”
“You didn’t know what the shoes cost or how long I waited to buy them.”
Jake did not argue.
He asked whether Eli wanted him to leave.
“Not yet,” Eli said.
He walked to a shelf and returned with a battered metal lunchbox.


“This was my father’s,” he said.
“He used to bring it to work every day.”
Eli opened the lid and showed Jake a photograph of a boy holding a new pair of sneakers.
“My son got the shoes,” he said.
“My brother bought them when I couldn’t.”
Jake looked at the photograph.
“I’m glad he did.”
“I’m glad too,” Eli replied.
“I just wish it hadn’t been necessary.”
Jake nodded.
Eli closed the lunchbox.
“I don’t need you to pay me back,” he said.
“I need you to remember what happened the next time somebody is standing beside you.”
Jake promised he would.


Eli returned to the sedan.
Jake walked out into the sunlight feeling neither forgiven nor rejected.
He felt as though a conversation he had avoided for a year had finally been allowed to happen.